Funny how the people who are closest to you can end up hurting you the most. Then again, it aint that funny and it happens everyday, jus that ppl like me have been spared that painful reality for q some time that we forget. Eg. Ppl with alcoholic dad and mums; fave uncle who turns out to be a paedophile... nope din happen to me like that... my tale isn't tat tragic yet.

Now got a broken bedroom door to fix... wish i could say tt the damage was caused by some chio bu who was v v v eager to meet me and wouldn't take a "no" for an answer. Wish i could tell the whole world that i am sooper zai, got lots of self control and principle and wun take advantage of SYT-sweet young things who are lonely and find me sexier than brad pitt... but i can't... Wish tt i wasn't so delusional heh...

Door's broken, door-knob no longer works... and i realised that the material that was used to make the door is damn lousy. Break so damn easily after what... 2mins? Will get teak nex time in case someone tried to disturb me and my wife when we are making out. And teak transmits sound less heh heh...

Wood fragments are strewn across the tiled floor. Angry words splashed carelessly onto hearts that too easily soak it up, cos hearts have been waiting and longin for tt affirmation tt was slow in coming. And tt's why it hurts. That was why i stayed my hand and voice, and stilled my heart... where i would have bashed up the other guy on the soccer field.

Sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me.

The generation of kids who really took that bloody rhyme would have repressed all the Baaadd feelings and end up depressed, suicidal or homicidal. Or they would have done the worst thing possible to themselves and changed their gender back and forth a couple of times, or married a gal who cuts herself routinely for fun.... or they would have studied medicine to become surgeons so that they can cut up people and bleed them without getting charged in court for it.

Me? I just have a good cry 2 weeks to a year after a traumatic event, cos my emotions have a mind of their own haha... i dun understand either.